goodbye.

when i said i’d write her a song

i didn’t picture it like this

sitting at a desk

wondering where i belong

when i said i’d dedicate words

i didn’t think it’d be like this

crying and trying to not be heard

choruses never came easy to me

cause they make me feel like my world’s on repeat

so now, i’ll just write strings of words

singing verses about hollow birds

wallpapering my heart with thoughts naïve

covering what even i can’t believe

and maybe this shows that we don’t feel the same

cause in some twisted way, i’m sure i’m to blame

put this paper down and burn each word by the letter

and quit while you’re ahead, kid,

it’s not getting any better.

choruses never came easy to me

cause they make me feel like my world’s on repeat

so now, i’ll just write strings of words

singing verses about hollow birds

wallpapering my heart with thoughts naïve

covering what even i can’t believe

and i feel like i should tell her

that she can lost my number if she wants

cause that might make this easier

she won’t be left with only photographs that haunt.

when we die, there’s this place we go

where everyone loves you and you’re not alone

so her suitcase is packed for a metaphorical lie

and this is why i know that i’m still alive

choruses never came easy to me

cause they make me feel like my world’s on repeat

so now, i’ll just write strings of words

singing verses about hollow birds

wallpapering my heart with thoughts naïve

covering what even i can’t believe

i can just see the confusion on your face

when i give you this envelope that say,

“read me on the plane.”

don’t get me wrong, i can’t live without you

yet when you same the same, it doesn’t seem true

but it’s so hard when what should be our first

changes to last

life’s just so hard when first changes to last

and these roads i thought together we’d cross

now put me at a loss

for words except for ones that cut like glass

i don’t want to be a face from your past

choruses never came easy to me

cause they make me feel like my world’s on repeat

so now, i’ll just write strings of words

singing verses about hollow birds

wallpapering my heart with thoughts naïve

covering what even i can’t believe

so here you go, my heart in word form

and in the corner, you’ll see it’s torn

but this is a lesson i’ll never learn:

don’t get attached, it only burns

secretly, i’ll tear out the thread

that connected our hearts, it feels like lead

so next time we speak, hello will be a bigger lie

this one’s for you, it’s called goodbye.